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the act of leaving
12:27
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the act of leaving
1.
each door leads to another door
i am not a hallway
i am a window
(look thru me)
no table no chairs
(look past me)
the downtime no passway
past causeway no halfway
i work against myself
in the far off non-speaking
poison inhabits darkness
darkness inhabits
(i) (i) (i)
in the downtime no passway
past causeway no halfway
growing rage (doesn't equal)
growing loneliness (doesn’t equal)
growing dark (doesn’t help)
growing out (doesn’t help)
equal to the downtime no passway
past causeway no halfway
speak now or why bother (no)
leave now or why bother (no)
all roads lead the same direction
wind blows north
i move south - no passway
past causeway no halfway
all the lights are red
it doesn't matter how far i drive
what a contradiction of forces
up down too far behind
one more day in this faulty body
leads to
downtime no passway
past causeway no halfway
mostly everything has a shadow
2
dreams of being blind in one eye and able to see in the other is a clear indication of the inbalance of my body
dreams of being chased, constantly, back and forth and back and forth and over and thru and back and forth
dreams of old men offering me advice, dreams of old men yelling advice at me, dreams of old men yelling
dreams of being blind in one eye
dreams of being able to see
in the dream i am being chased
in the dream it is constant, back and forth and back and forth and over and thru and back and forth
dreams of old men offering me advice
dreams of old men yelling advice at me, why would i listen to you?
dreams of old men yelling - yelling is not offering, offers do not yell, why is everyone yelling?
dreams of a road i need to be on but I am too far north. Repeated repeated i know the road i know the side roads, i am on the wrong road i am too far north
the north road has a gate
i dream of the gate
there is no gate
i dream of the road
The road is not a dream
too far north
dreams of falling, a long fall from a high point. i cannot control my fall. i am falling. dreams of the ledge, dreams of the wind as i am falling. this is not a dream, this is falling
3.
we work
this works
we work
we work
(2x)
why stop
this works
we work
we work
this works
we work
we work
(2x)
this works
this will work
this works
this works
4.
giving - receiving
these are words that mean nothing
to be - concealing
these are options to be revealing
the truth is an option
the sideline is guaranteed
dead end street lights leave nothing
show nothing - offer nothing
surviving - reviving
these are words used when beyond the point of no return
to be - concealing
these are options to be revealing
your truth is an option
the sideline is guaranteed
deadend street lights leave nothing
i can’t give my heart to anyone
5.
always working [readymade]
always moving [irongrade]
ignore [ignore]
in an active space
all issues can be ignored
in an active space
always in motion
means nothing works
readymade
irongrade
few problems exist
in an active space
all issues can be ignored
in an active space
always working [readymade]
always moving [irongrade]
ignore [ignore]
in an active space
all issues can be ignored
in an active space
brick walls and mortar
means nothing to the walls we build
{weighting the options between
foundation and walls
between windows and sky}
all issues can be ignored
in my active space
all issues can be ignored
in my active place
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thirteen miniatures
07:03
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(thirteen miniatures)
1.
within my voice is many voices
2.
its a year yet
tell me
how do i know
so the earth quakes
and the rain takes
all its final notes
3.
i am the storm
i am the push
i am the thought
i am the end
4.
keep this between us
you're better than this
keep this between us
things could be different
keep this between us
as we pass on the stairs
5. (for Tim Mays)
under the green light
my life changed
6. (interlude one)
7. (this next piece is for Mackenzie Leighton)
bridge jumper
sky runner
time bender
life expander
8. (wingman apology)
i really wish it was me
being shutdown
just for the moment
of being with you
9. (for Eval Kneival)
follow it
build it
grow it
make it
top it
change it
top it
follow it
follow it
10. the black clouds have come again
11. (interlude two)
12. (deadend)
of all the choices
of all the options
of all the memories
of all your picks
of all the sun
of all my chances
of all the roads
of all the forks
of all the pauses
of all the choices
i'm a deadend
13.
regrets only
you were never as good as i thought you'd be
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adaptive prefix point
03:42
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6. |
necessary downturn
06:12
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7. |
day after the equinox
07:37
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three songs
02:22
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three songs -
I knew something was wrong (text by Dorothea Grossman)
I knew something was wrong
the day I tried to pick up a
small piece of sunlight
and it slithered through my fingers,
not wanting to take shape.
Everything else stayed the same—
the chairs and the carpet
and all the corners
where the waiting continued.
It is not so much that I miss you (text by Dorothea Grossman)
It is not so much that I miss you
as the remembering
which I suppose is a form of missing
except more positive,
like the time of the blackout
when fear was my first response
followed by love of the dark.
Noon Concert (text by Dorothea Grossman)
These frail, white widows
who get their hair done weekly
in tight curls,
like little flowers,
bend their heads
until the applause
says it’s time
to be brave again.
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